Tuesday, February 20, 2018

My sweet sixteen ;)



Dear sweet sixteen self,

Believe it or not, I’m the latest version of you! A few extra pounds, freckles, wrinkles & another 16 years!

I want to start by thanking you & telling you how proud I am of you. You were a beautiful young energetic naturally sweet princess :) Your anklets, orange bag & kiddish lipglosses never added to your beauty; your beauty came from within you..

I want to thank you for so many things..

For wearing the proper attire no matter where you went & despite being the odd one out..

For keeping your instinctive modesty & never trying to fit in.. For working hard on protecting your loving heart from stains.. For loving God’s house & growing from there..

For hanging out with the right crowd & trying hard to make the world ‘a better place’..

For continuously inspiring & being inspired..

For listening to the right songs that painted your very own unique gallery, & caring so much to share it.. With everyone!

For loving the others, no matter where they came from & how different they were..

For being honest & true to yourself before others..

*sighs*

Did you make mistakes you ask? Of course..

You didn’t study hard now, did you? You could have done better.. Worked harder..

You should have continued your French learning, you’re good with languages :(

You were too strict, with yourself & others.. A bit judging & expecting much.. Much more than you should..

Too caring...

Remember how you loved kids so much, & thought you’ll never have any.. Well, one came from within you.. You didn’t see that coming, I know..

Wait, I’ll answer all your questions, you need to breathe & take it one breath at a time, remember?

Well no, you didn’t get a horse as your dowry, nor did a Prince Charming sweep you off your feet.. I told you, you were too strict in your thinking & a bit judging..

You see, you thought a spiritual person is one who grew a beard & knew how to recite God’s words.. It’s not like that sweetheart!

You were a bit too sheltered & bubble-wrapped & knew nothing about the real world..

Rejecting proposals for narrow-minded reasons.. And insisting on your opinion, & only yours..

Don’t be sad please, I’m not here to make you feel sad.. We are always trying hard in making the right choices in the path that was chosen for us by Him.. We’ll always trip along the way.. We just need to dust of the dirt & keep going :’)

You guessed right, a girl.. A beautiful little princess whom everybody loves dearly.. 

She’s far away from me, in a far-away land; ‘cuz life ain’t perfect.. Remember those Indian books you read & movies you watched? You are one of their characters..

I’m sorry to have failed you.. I’m sorry for the tears & heartbreak..

Hey, your palms are still sweaty.. It went less for a while, but came back..

Oh & being a hygiene freak? You still are I’m afraid!

No kite-surfing nor sky-diving yet.. However, I jet skied & it was better than you always expected..

I owe you an apology.. A huge one..

I

Am

Sorry!

But I promise to work harder in not souring the sweetness that’s left off you..

With love,
Your bittersweet self

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